I can't believe it's almost March!!

I can't believe it is almost March! These last few months have just flown by and I can't tell you how grateful I am for that. I know people say you are supposed to live in the present, well I don't, I live in the future of what is to come! In a year Jordan will be done with school and all of our babies will be that much closer to being at least a little more independant than they are. I love my children, but they are definintley handfuls and I am not going to lie I have a lot of hard and overwhelming days with zero time for my self to do anything, even just sitting at the computer for even a minute sets me back and I pay for it later either because I wasn't watching what my kids were doing and now I have double the clean up, I have made them and me frustrated because they want me and I want a minute to sit, or I am up way past my bed time which would be 7 if I could at all possibly get to bed at that time, but it would be impossible.

Easton is a sweet, smiley little boy. He does have some acid reflux problems that have caused me added stress that I wish I didn't have to deal with, but overall is a good boy. The biggest problem with him so far has been that he won't go to anyone but me. Along with all my other children climbing all over me I have become clostrophobic to my kids. He also needs to be held ALL the time. We switched up his medication for his acid reflux which has helped out a little and I am waiting to see as he has been on this medication a little longer if it will get even better. It seems like all of my children as babies have felt the need to think I have nothing else in life to do but hold them, so I am used to always having a baby on my hip. It must be me causing this problem! When I was pregnant and Ava was more of a baby than she is now ( she is more in the stages of transitioning into a toddler so I can't quite not say "when she was a baby" quite yet) I would mow the lawn with ava in my sling and my belly sticking out, it was the easiest way. She too would not let me put her down. My husband is a good man and would always tell me not to mow the lawn, he would do it, but really, he was so busy with school that it wouldn't get done very often so I was fine with doing it, but he always would stress for me not to, so no bad thoughts about him not doing it.

Anyway, I just wish I had a moment to just sit with out a baby on me. Last Friday I wanted to go to the temple, but I did not want to leave Jordan on his own with all 4 kids. Again, I really do have a wonderful husband who knew what hell he would be put through being all alone with the kids and a baby who cries just looking at him, but insisted he would be fine and would be more than willing to do it. But I didn't feel like it was fair to him or to our kids to do that, so we called his brother over to help out. It turns out Easton screamed the entire time I was gone, I felt really bad.

At night when we are done putting the 3 older kids down I am feeding and rocking Easton, while, if Jordan is home, cleaning up, which takes twice as long doing it alone. And by the time all that is done sometimes I am able to lay Easton in his crib and get maybe an hour to myself (which is sometimes spent running to the store for groceries) until he starts crying because he wants us in bed with him. Seriously, it is a good dang thing I love him. The good thing about all this, is these are all similar situations we had with our other kids so it's not much different. Ava was the only one who slept with us in our bed for about a week and then was done, she realized being able to sprawl out in her own bed was much better. She is our most independant child.

Here is a few are a few pictures of the stages that Easton goes through when being held by Jordan...

Is this normal? the only difference with Easton than with our other children has been that he is Breast fed; could that make a difference? He cries every time he is holding him, he does a little better if he is facing away from him, it's really sad and frustrating.